Chapter

The criminal trial came three months later.
By then, Dawn had left Michael.
I found out from Arthur. She'd packed her bags while Michael was at work—what work he could find—and taken what was left of their money. She'd filed for divorce.
Michael was alone. Working at a hardware store. Living in a cheap motel.
He called me. Twice. I didn't answer.
The third time, Margaret answered. She listened, then handed me the phone.
"He wants to see you," she said. "He says it's important."
I hesitated. Then, "Put him on."
"Mom?" Michael's voice was small. "Mom, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I've been thinking. About everything. About Dad. About how hard you worked. About how I treated you. And I—" His voice cracked. "I'm sorry."
I was quiet for a long time.
"Michael," I said finally. "Sorry doesn't un-hit me. Sorry doesn't un-steal two hundred and sixty thousand dollars. Sorry doesn't give me back seven years of my life."
"I know," he whispered. "I know. I don't expect you to forgive me. I just… I wanted you to know. I know what I did. And I hate myself for it."
I closed my eyes.
"Where are you?" I said.
He told me. A motel on the east side.
"I'll come by," I said. "But not because you deserve it. Because I need to look you in the eye and say what I have to say."
I went the next day.
The motel was grim. Michael's room had a bed, a TV, and a duffel bag. He'd lost weight. His clothes were wrinkled. He looked like a stranger.
We sat across from each other at the tiny table.
"I'm not going to make excuses," he said. "Dawn was… she was controlling. But that's not an excuse. I let her. I chose her over you. Every single time. And I will regret that for the rest of my life."
"Why?" I said. "Why did you?"
He looked at his hands. "Because she was young. And she made me feel… important. And you—you were always there. You were always going to be there. I took you for granted. I thought you'd never leave."
I almost laughed. "I almost didn't. I stayed for seven years, Michael. Seven years of insults. Seven years of being treated like a servant. I stayed because I loved you. Because you were my son."
Tears ran down his face. "I know. I know, and I'm—"
"Don't say sorry again." My voice was sharp. "I don't want sorry. I want you to understand. You didn't just lose your home. You lost your mother. And if you ever want any chance of getting her back, you're going to have to earn it."
He nodded. "How?"
"Therapy," I said. "A real job. Paying back every cent you stole. And time. Lots of time. I'm not ready to be your mother yet. Maybe I never will be. But if you do the work—if you actually change—maybe one day we can start over."
I stood up.
"The trial is next week," I said. "I'll be testifying. Against Dawn. I won't lie for you, Michael. But I will tell the truth—that you were manipulated. That you were weak. That you've shown remorse. That's the best I can do."
I walked to the door.
"Mom?" he said.
I turned.
"Thank you," he whispered. "For not giving up on me completely."
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I didn't answer. I just walked out.
But in the car, I cried. For the boy I'd lost. And for the man who might, one day, be worth finding again.