Chapter 7

A year after the trial, I got a letter.
From Daniel. Prison.
I almost didn't open it. But something made me.
Rachel, it said.
I've been in here a year. I've had a lot of time to think. About what I did. About Lorraine. About you.
I'm not going to ask for forgiveness. I don't deserve it. But I wanted to tell you—I'm sorry. I'm sorry I let my mother treat you that way. I'm sorry I threw you out of bed. I'm sorry I stole. I'm sorry I lied. I'm sorry I became someone I don't recognize.
You were right. About everything. And I lost the best thing that ever happened to me because I was weak. Because I couldn't stand up to my mother. Because I thought money meant power, and power meant I could do whatever I wanted.
I read about your clinic. The 5:03 Project. You're helping women. You're doing good. I'm proud of you. Even if I have no right to be.
I hope you're happy. I hope you found someone who treats you the way you deserve. I hope you know—you were the best thing that ever happened to me. And I threw it away.
Daniel.
I read it twice. Then I put it down.
I didn't feel anger. I didn't feel sadness. I felt… nothing. Just quiet.
He was in prison. I was free. He'd gotten what he deserved. And I'd gotten my life back.
I showed the letter to David. He read it, looked at me, and said, "How do you feel?"
"Nothing," I said. "Is that wrong?"
"No," he said. "That's healing. When someone who hurt you stops having power over your emotions—that's when you know you're really free."
He was right.
That same year, The 5:03 Project helped its five-hundredth woman. We had a gala. David was there. My sister was there. Janet was there. Maria was there—she was now a volunteer, helping other women.
I gave a speech. I told my story. The 5:03 AM knock. The bed. The bruise. The camera. The fight. The freedom.
At the end, I said: "They told me to learn my place. So I did. My place is here. Fighting. Winning. Helping other women find their freedom too. And no one—no one—will ever tell me to make breakfast at five in the morning again."
The room stood up. Applause. Tears. Cheers.
And I looked out at the crowd—at David, at my sister, at Janet, at the hundreds of women we'd helped—and I felt something I hadn't felt in a very long time.
Pride.
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I was proud of myself. Proud of what I'd built. Proud of what I'd survived.
And I was just getting started.